Madness in Year 2

Recently, I've just entered Year 2 of my degree. And just recently, I enrolled myself into a double degree course, with one degree from HELP University College & the other one from Charles Sturt University in Australia. Well the fees are one thing. Taking a double degree is another thing. CSU is giving me a lot of problems, not because of the uni or the subjects, but the confusion of doing a double degree!

Well you see, the subjects that I've taken in Year 1 are not part of the problem, because I am already exempted from all of them, having HELP and CSU doing the subject matching for me. The problem is registering for subjects - as I get so confused doing it. As an example, HELP's MKT 201 is called Consumer Behaviour whereas CSU's MKT 220 is called Buyer Behaviour. Okay, so basically these two are the same subjects as they are taught in the same classroom at the same time by the same lecturer. No problem there. The problem is, I thought it is the same and so I registered for MKT 220. Much to my horror, the fee for the subject came up to RM2000! Only then did I realized that I should have registered for MKT 201 instead, which is probably RM1500. Bloody hell. I mean, how am I supposed to know that they're two different things? I get so confused. So does it mean that when lecturers ask if anyone is from CSU, I should say no? Because for HELP students right, the assessments are a little different. Alrighty. I'm confused. Probably I'm still doing HELP for second year and then only CSU for the third. So I'm not really CSU yet unless I take Year 3 subjects. Which I'm taking one now.

I feel so bad adding and dropping subjects through the school's website, which means more work for the staff. But fuck care lah, I pay RM500 in resource fee every year! And just now, when I tried to use the computer lab, I couldn't login because my password has expired. Wtf right? Useless school.

Oh yeah, another rant.

I went over to the Business Dept to talk to someone about that problem (see above) and there wasn't anyone to talk to! The fella Shin, was on leave and the other fella, Mr. Tan went to some scholarship meeting! Urgh! Imagine I damn angry loh! And I drew out money from the ATM already also!

Came home and e-mailed a lady from the Registry named Ms. Hairani and she very speedily dropped the stupid MKT 220 subject for me! But she didn't add the MKT 201 for me though! Why?!?

Probably going to meet my aunt and her family later at MidValley or somewhere. My cousin will be leaving for France tomorrow for some exchange program. Sounds fun.
I really hate datelines. I don't know but I have this nagging feeling always. Like how I hate being late. Sometimes I think it is good but most of the time I just wish that I can feel selamba and stuff like that. Which I can't.

First day of Year 2 & Things I need to buy

Today, I woke up at 6.15 am and got ready for school. Reached there around 7.50 am but the class wasn't open so I had to wait outside. It was kinda full too, probably because those students are starting a new semester as well.

Class was pretty good, the class is small! Probably around 15 people max. Our lecturer, Ms. Gengeswari or Ms. Geng, as she asks us to call her has a reputation among the first years, the semester after ours. As she was teaching some of them Principles of Marketing, I heard that she has really high standards and will not hesitate to give u a rotten grade, well, if you're rotten. So far she is really nice. Easy to talk to I guess. She said she's not even 30. Not bad, considering that she is taking her PhD as we speak. Anyway, the shitty part was this - all of a sudden the word PREREQUISITE came out on her slides and it said CONSUMER BEHAVIOUR MKT 201. Shit. Janet & I was like, wtf? Anyway, it's cleared. Because we're taking Charles Sturt Uni, we don't need the prerequisite! But too bad. When we were busy going to the noticeboard outside the office to clarify, the rest picked out the case study for our first assignment. We got what's left: Texas Instruments - the most boring company from the lot. There was Disneyland, Ikea, Levis...geez. Well, it could be a blessing, who knows. And did I mention that we've already got work to do? On the first day?!? Stressed.

Having Business Communication finals tomorrow. Yup, my first year and second year sort of clashed but I don't have to skip classes or anything.

Need to pay RM 4000 by 4th of December. I'm only taking 2 subjects and it's RM2000 each, swt. I have a hunch that it is because those two subjects are supposed to be CSU's third year subjects and thus, RM 2000 each. I HOPE LAH! Going to clarify with office tomorrow.

So, some things I need to go get:

1) Printer Ink - In terrible need of printer ink. Should I get only black or both black and colour?

2) A bag strong enough to carry my books. Just borrowed 3 books from the library for my subjects...I carried one in my backpack and it's so heavy to just hold it with my arms. Need some aunty bag.

3) Bus ticket for Penang.

4) Facial Cleanser.

5) Highlighters/Pens

Recently, I've won a contest organized by B.liv by Cellnique and Nuffnang. Going to blog about it soon but what I really want to say is, I really love the products they gave me! Going to switch to that soon!

***Anyway Dad, congratulations to you for being so lucky! I want to eat crab when I come back! Oh yeah, you should go Las Vegas! Go treat yourself lah!***
***To Mum, Chu & Germuk, want any food from KL? Donuts? The Cinnabon nice or not? Want some more? Pudding wants treats? Should I go buy IKEA meatballs?***

P/S: Have to study now, 4 more chapters to go!

How time flies: One year later.

Last year, on the 6th of October (my birthday, ahem) I came to live in KL (generally speaking KL, specifically speaking, Selangor)

Many things have changed and happened that I will talk about some other day.

The important thing is, I've finally finished my first year at HELP!

Yup, 2 long semesters and 2 short semesters later, I managed to finish the 11 required subjects! Finals for Business Communication on Tuesday.

Anyway, I'm starting my second year later, at 8am. Excited.

Tutu.

I'm bad at comforting people. What am I going to say to my boyfriend whose dog is going to die?

I twittered the sentence a few seconds ago.

A few minutes ago, I received an SMS from my boyfriend.

Just when I was about to call him, to tell him that I've won tickets again, this time to watch Princess and the Frog. He also won tickets to watch Love Happens.

The message read, "Dear, Tutu is dying."

Tutu is my boyfriend's very old dog, about 12-13 years. It is understandable that he might be reaching his end-but my boyfriend loves this dog very much.
I wanted to comfort him so much, to tell him that he might be thinking too much and Tutu will be fine. He told me Tutu vomited his food and refused to move. Recently, Tutu hasn't been too well and was warded a few days and he has been taking a lot of medication.
I don't know, will saying "everything will be fine" a good idea? Guess not.
I know how he feels. He feels helpless. Like how I used to feel when my grandma was in a coma 6 years back.
I told him, everyone has their time. Which is true but not particularly useful in situations like this. Yes, we all know that. People have to die. Animals have to die. Pets have to die. But letting go of something is painful. It leaves us a scar, something that we will have to carry with - probably forever. I understand that pain.

Dear,

I may not have the right words to say to you. I may not know how to comfort you. I can't make Tutu younger or healthier. I can't make you any less attached to him - or love him less.
But I can tell you this...
We all need to leave...sooner or later. You know that. We can't hold on forever the people and the things we love - when they have to leave us. You can't hold on to Tutu when his time comes.
But remember, those whom we love, they will always be with us. They are in our hearts, in our memories, they are our essence. Even when they leave us, it doesn't mean we will stop loving them. It doesn't mean they stop loving you. I know it is hard to let go. I've been there and done that - and I didn't do a good job of it. But I learn to accept.

That people (and pets) that you love, no matter what, lives in us. Because we choose to remember.

It is hard to see Tutu in this state. Be by his side - as long as there are no regrets.
As long as the time you had with Tutu was well spent - as long as the 12 years was memorable and meaningful.
I didn't get to talk to my grandma before she passed on. I didn't get to see her open her eyes, we didn't get to talk...I don't know which is worse, not getting to say goodbye or the latter.
I didn't even go the hospital when the call came at around 3am. I was too tired. Tired of being an emotional wreck, always crying, seeing her in a sleeping state in the hospital...Maybe I was scared of how I will react...and I chose not to go. And that was one of the biggest regret of my life.

Remember dear...as long as there are no regrets.

Tutu, good boy <3

Mulan.

Recently won two tickets to the screening of Mulan, directed by Jingle Ma. The role of Mulan was acted by Vicki Zhao or Zhao Wei, as most of us are more familiar with. Went to collect the passes and watched the movie just now with Duncan.

So the verdict.(SPOILERS ahead!)

I really like this movie. You guys know me. I've never, ever written a review on any movie whatsoever, none especially this year. I'm not a person that will gush over a movie. I'm not someone that is easily satisfied either. Most of the time I will either "meh" the movie or the best would be "okaylah". Yup, very hard to satisfy.

However, this movie really won me over, as much as I hate to admit. It probably started winning me over the minute Zhao Wei a.k.a Mulan poured her dad his medicine. It pulled my heartstrings. The only part I was a little disappointed was when her dad received the tag thing (command) to report to camp. That part wasn't emphasized enough, it was done and over very quickly, unlike the Mulan from Disney.

So, she goes to camp. Apparently this Mulan already knows kung fu and can kick ass. Not bad. I kinda like the part where the Commander orders them to strip (in order to catch a thief) and she took the blame so that she wouldn't need to reveal her identity as a woman. I was like thinking-so will the hero save her from having to strip or what? Not bad, she would rather die than to be shamed as a woman huh?

The movie also explores the emotional sides of war-and her being woman. It's pretty refreshing, having the privilege of watching this for free (for I would not want to pay for a movie named MULAN -and will probably regret) for this movie really has depth. Seriously. It's sad. It's tragic. But it's also very inspiring.

It doesn't have much special effects-no special kung fu moves, no wind, no thunder, no lightning, no fancy fanwork or brushwork and the shizz. It's a good movie. It makes us think, and appreciate that we can always have the things we want-somehow. We can always love who we want-and freely, not controlled by circumstances.

Duncan thinks it's too tragic. And he doesn't like it. He thinks the director downsized the love part of the movie.

When you're at war-there is little time to love, no? The love is discreet, but you know it's there. It feels very painful.
Leaving your sick father,
Watching your "brothers"die,
The pain that comes with loss,
And the pain of loving someone that you cannot be with.

It is a huge emotional movie-it could be better, but I think it is good enough. No need for any fancy kung fu thingie or those poetical crap.

When you're at war, anything goes.

Random images.

Since the day my camera kaputted, my blog has been nothing but a whole load of boring words. I definitely couldn't be blamed as it wasn't my intention. I know, I'm not really a photo blogger myself, I sort of hate uploading photos into my laptop. I also really detest putting watermarks on them as it takes time to do everything. However, being nice once in a while isn't too bad, eh?

September: Tried cupcakes from Cuppacakes by Wondermilk. Duncan's sister was celebrating her birthday so I decided to get cupcakes. Wanted to do a taste test first though, don't want to get any yucky tasting cupcakes. Well, Cuppacakes did not disappoint! We went back and got mini cupcakes :) It was a hit among his sis and dad...and us too of course!

The box up close. Pretty yeah? :)

Can you believe that this small thing costs us RM4.50? But it was divine, seriously. Me likey!

Duncan took me to makan dessert at SS2 recently. The place is called KTZ or something. Had Mango LOHHHHH and he had Honeydew LOHHHHHH. Not bad, but the price RM6 is a little too steep for my liking.

One of our meals. My breakfast and lunch and his breakfast-I think. Mine is the one with the strawberries! Ham and cheese sandwiches with potato salad and fruit. His was ham and cheese sandwiches with potato salad and leftover luncheon meat.

This really saves us a lot of money as Duncan's mum bought us the food-we just spend money on bread. I've been eating something like this every Tuesday and Friday...kinda miss eating in school but classes start at 11 and ends at 2...when all the food is gone! :( Bummer!

The flowers my darling gave me for my birthday! Thanks dear <3>

Jeng Jeng Jeng...the picture of him that I drew on MSN while I was in Penang and he, in KL.

And that's all I have :( Most of my pictures are in the camera, cis.

Cold & Wet days.

Days in KL are getting crappy.

First, the weather is too cold. Imagine! Too cold in Malaysia! Well cold is always better than hot in my opinion but it has been raining for 2-3 weeks! I think today was the only day that it didn't rain, but it wasn't sunny either. It is really cold. Cold and wet. I can wear a cardi to school and mind you, I WALK to the LRT station.

Second, Moral Studies are killing me. I used to think that the stupid subject is easy peasy. Try taking it during the short semester! No, try taking it in HELP! I only have two months and yet there are 2 Quizzes, 1 case study test, 1 group presentation, 1 group assignment and then finals. Happy to say that I've just completed my part for the group assignment and all that's left is finals. Imagine just taking two subjects but with assessment for almost every week. Gosh.

Third. I'm sooo bored! You know people like us like to procrastinate right? So when I procrastinate, I have nothing to do! I've been dying to catch up with Gossip Girl (I'm pathetically far behind) but the internet is slow! I'm trying to save money so there goes any good food or entertainment! (Double boo!) I'm kinda sick of eating my own cooking too (OMG) Must definitely find something to occupy myself before I go mad.

Oh yeah, there is a possibility that I might only do one subject for this coming short semester. Whaddafuck right? Well, department says so. Should I risk it? I'm only worried that being new to this 2nd year thing, I might actually risk getting sucky grades if I can't cope. Oh well, should probably take it slow?

Haven't been doing any laundry since the skies are so unpredictable. I might even go short of fresh clean clothes to wear, haha.

Having a stupid 3 hour Moral class later :( Made lunch for myself. Ham and cheese sandwich with some strawberries to console myself. I've eaten so much bread these two months! Bread for lunch every Tuesday and Friday T_T

I should probably console myself next month with something like KFC or IKEA's meatballs. Or good old nasi lemak ayam XD

Going to bed now, having the sniffles from the cold.

Can you imagine that I go to sleep wearing my cardi? And I already have a blanket too!